I’m shedding my skin –
like a Band-Aid pulled off
the pain is sharp, but short-lived.
Bits of ego on the floor –
layers of skin and experience
for the wind to blow and scatter.
A dry pile of remnants remain;
dusty old me’s to be swept away
under a carpet or into a corner.
I’m shedding my skin.
Sloughing off past habits,
collecting hair from the drain
to make a sculpture.
I keep an ear, an eye,
a piece of brain stem.
Teeth and bones
Stitched with sinew –
a simulacra of my self.
I resolve to remember.
To preserve in pictures –
recollections flattened
between pages,
preserved in a jar.
I’m shedding my skin.
But what’s underneath
is not fully ready.
Nerves are raw,
lungs, undersized,
gasping for air
and understanding.
I reach out –
but what once was my hand
is now a claw,
a talon –
a sharp tool for piercing.
I cannot hold hands
Or caress my lover’s chest.
I’m left with a lizard’s tongue,
split and uncertain,
flitting in and out,
discerning its surroundings.
My old covering sits alone
in a chair near the corner.
Empty eyeholes for gazing –
seeing nothing.
An empty shell.
What I once was,
or wasn’t,
cannot be pieced together
from skeletal suggestions.
Details are lacking –
Contours and movement,
the shape of the lips,
the twinkle in the eye.
the curve of the neck.
Formless and crawling,
I begin to grow a new outer casing –
a shell-like protection
for my neophyte softness.
All I can do is wait.